:: I Have Learnt ::
::I'm sick today. Woke up with a bad throat and a runny nose. Argh. I hate this. The nights are so so cold, and no matter how many layers of clothings I put on (with socks even), I still get the chill. Anyway, had a really good talk with Zein the other day about this plan I was having, to start something. And well, it's looking pretty promising. As always, the passion to do something should constantly be kept alive.Its such a bad day. I'm angry. At everything. I feel like in some sort of a waiting list. But then again, I can bravely say it is my fault. And to some, it always is.

I missed my white coffee. I bought another brand yesterday, but fucking hell, it sucks.

Sometimes, I should just learn to hang in there, breathe, and love. I do feel selfish sometimes, but thats because I care too fucking much. Understanding is not as easy as they say. It takes more that just being willing. It cramps your tummy sometimes to undestand. And somehow or rather, I feel the need to be submissive to understand.

"Yes...I understand..." and inside, you break and cry into the deepest of you. Living is so hard with your eyes open and your heart knowing what it feels. I cried my head off listening to Tori Amos' version of Landslide. Dixie Chicks made a version too, but being Tori, hers is always more intense. It's true what they said in there, -whoever said it first.

"Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Well, I've been afraid of changin'
'Cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
Well, I'm getting older too

If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well maybe ...
The landslide will bring you down."